Sunday, August 14, 2005
Just got back from JB.
woke up at 9. thot they left. and they called.. told me it was at 930 am. i got up. thinking bout yesterdae. y do u keep saying that it is okay to ignore u? do u want me to ignore u?...... then i got into the car. on the wae. i still thot of u. wat would happen... i dont noe. then we went to a place to do my bro-in-law car body kit. tts the reason he asked me out to follow him. i picked. then we went to carefour. they shopped. i still thot of her. and me. i tink my whole family saw my cut. i tink thats y they are so good to me. are they taking behind my back? is that y? did they just notice my difference? its too late. wat i noe is that i dont have a family. but i still thot of u.
after shopping they ate. i didnt have the mood to eat. i thot of u. i thot of my future.... them we went to coffee bean... they drank. i drank too. but still i thot of u. and the funny thing is.. i tink god is trying to tell me something. 2 things. i tink i noe wat it is... soon u guys will noe...
then they went to giant. on the wae. i thot of u. i thot abt my life...
they shopped again. i did too. but still, i thot of u. in the end... i didnt buy anything. then they shopped till it was 6... i thot of u. then i thot abt my exams. it was then i was so fucking scared. it was my n's... i dont wanna fail. not even 1...
if i fail my maths. i'm gonna go suicide...
tmr i thot i want to go to batu 7... or go photo taking. but i have to study. alone, wit a fren. anithing. im so afraid that i'll fail. sigh. the library. its my home. im gonna go crazy... after my n's im gonna relie relie let out my stress. and leave the skool. i just dont feel myself rite now. and im still thinking of u.
[[ not myself. ]]
[[ thinking of u ]]
[[ i tink im not okay. ]]
[[ am i? ]]
[[ n's ]]
PROFILE
faliq
.|.the.|.heart.|.broken.|.
.|.age.|.Sweet 16....
.|.d/o/b.|. remember remember.. the 1st of november...
.|.sign.|.scorpio
.|.autobiography.|.
.|.love.|.music, Drums, Snare, movies, nature, Blue, red, purple, white, black, Burple, shoes, friends, art, reading, Percussion, floorball, rock climbing.
.|.hate.|.dumbasses, jackasses, boundaries, being told what to do, people who brag about themselves constantly, mean people, cicadas -shudder-, Critising and those who pick on the weak....
.|.currently.|.
-talking to: nobody
-listening to: And then i turned seven. *
-watching: the world going by me....
-thinking:
abt life.
-wanting: the best
-iming: nobody
-surfing: the usuall.
-obsessing: music, percussion, cameras.
-wants: nothing.
