Saturday, September 17, 2005
im so dizzy. head's spining.
went and studie. i learnt alot. more than wat the textbook teaches. if u dont want me to studie wit u guys just sae so. y the lies? aniwaes FYI. b4 u guys came i alwaes studied alone. many pple wanted to join me i didnt want to. so i tink i studie alone its gonna be better. and i wont disturb u guys.
4t1.
had parkour session yesterdae. wit the boys. the malays. aniwaes its been long since i parkoured. and they didnt like it. they used to critized me and parkour. and it seems others too. break a leg i didnt. jumping from here to there im still waking without a limp. aniwaes now they loved parkour. we parkour outside the skool after our CPA paper. all of em cant wall run.. aniwaes teach u guys... soon. rahim gonna parkour wit the tam side boys. dont noe when. but wanna see how good they are. hAbit is good. he wanted to intro me to his boys but i just didnt have the time. mayB after n'levels alrite dude?
friends.
the only people that i relie trust wit my own life. wan, marc, faizal and some other people... wit these people i have been thru thick and thin wit them. and they are truly friends. the word friends in my dictionary represents them. and trust is a big thing for me. and if i found out u are lying. i can make ur life worse. or just lie back to u. i used to be a good liar. dont noe if still have it in me. its been long ever since i lied.
family.
i tink my family has gone crazy. my life; topsy turvy. first all of em keep nagging cos i dont studie. especially my mom, dad and sis. now mom and dad. they alwaes freaking nag and nag. then when i relie studie they keep dening that i m. fuck. y shud i waste my time studying at WS when i can anitime call my friends and freaking go out.
and my bro asks me to stop studing and come home. i didnt noe y. then when i called back he asked me to play the fucking game. and complete the map. wat the fuck? im studying. then he threaten to freaking beat me up. i didnt go home until an hours time. my mom called asking me to go home and play the god damn game. and the fuck? so i did. like an asshole. seems like it doesnt matter even if i fail. fuck it. stupid life. living life like my past is better. no problems. no friends wanna jerk u. no friends wanna lie to u. they help u when u're in trouble. the only thing is that they do loads of stuff that u dont wanna noe.
wan.
sorry dude. i didnt expect that could happen. if anithing i can help wit call me. seriously. call me. i tink i can do something. and sorry.... relie sorry. sorry .....
[[ never get wat i wanted. alwaes get when i dont want it. or when i dont ask and one dae its gonna be too late. mark these words. ]]
[[ im so sorry. ]]
[[ life. its a game. ]]
[[ and it sucks. ]]
[[ living a life of a loner. its kinda better. ]]
PROFILE
faliq
.|.the.|.heart.|.broken.|.
.|.age.|.Sweet 16....
.|.d/o/b.|. remember remember.. the 1st of november...
.|.sign.|.scorpio
.|.autobiography.|.
.|.love.|.music, Drums, Snare, movies, nature, Blue, red, purple, white, black, Burple, shoes, friends, art, reading, Percussion, floorball, rock climbing.
.|.hate.|.dumbasses, jackasses, boundaries, being told what to do, people who brag about themselves constantly, mean people, cicadas -shudder-, Critising and those who pick on the weak....
.|.currently.|.
-talking to: nobody
-listening to: And then i turned seven. *
-watching: the world going by me....
-thinking:
abt life.
-wanting: the best
-iming: nobody
-surfing: the usuall.
-obsessing: music, percussion, cameras.
-wants: nothing.
