a bullet through the heart </3

Thursday, September 22, 2005

came back. was raining. going to studie later. just finished skool.
got my eoa paper. they all say i'hv done well. those who did better than me. i just think that i have not done better enough. in maths. eoa. cpa. english. i dont care abt MT. still i wanna do better. better in my class. better than the some1 who's from another skool. i just wanna do the best i can. and i alwaes have stupid mistake.

father.
he saes he's okay. im glad to hear that. just heart burn. just thot i was gonna lose him. im glad that didnt happen.

still i have to pass all my subs. and do well. they dont mind if i dont do well. as long as i dont fail.. but to me thats not an achivement. i want high marks. i want that. to get that i mustn be careless. mayB i was too sad to do my prelims. but i have to do my n'levels realie well. i cant miss the chance. i wanna do relie well. i keep telling myself that... i must.

skool.
the only "black" boy that came. was fun. got to interact more wit the others. talking to xiu yong and sam was great. they are just like us. and was invited to their game challange. they wanna challange me to a game of war. C&C generals. thnks guys. i'll be coming. rest assured.

life.
still sad. sometimes happy. wit them. the friends. those pple.. just with any1 i tend to forget my probs. its good but its still there. cant just run. but i cant solve it too. dont make sense. but... i dont noe. todae im fine. just quite. thot abt things. and maths. most of it is maths. tts all.... leaving. it. just. dont. seem. right.

library.
studied alone. from 2 till 6.. did loads of cpa and maths. i feel asleep. i was drooling all over my cpa sheet. damn. then khalis and saiful came. i thot some guys were taking me away. cos i thot i was still dreaming. i was so tired. i slept and woke back up then slept. i thot i saw faiz. and illys. but again i thot i was sleeping. then stuffs happen. made pple laugh like as if they nvr. i was shocked. i luff too. missing the long hair. my hair's so short. pple like it. they sae i look young. some said y did u cut it so short! its like as if they feel the thing that i cut my hair. nvm its growing. when we come for floorball training u all shall see the hair longer! i hope so... aniwes my life still sucks. just living thru hell. before i go there. so its like a practical b4 the real thing...

[[ goodbye ]]
[[ xiuyong and sam ]]
[[ gotta studie ]]

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