Thursday, October 27, 2005
pedaling.
just got back from nite cycling wit wan marc and mat.... fun ar. then wan decided to go to pasir ris park. i felt different... reminds me. no words to sae....
thunders and rains.
its raining. thunder flashes. just like the cam. when its raining. it somehow suits my mood. sad. happy. both. when im sad i feel like it washes my problems for awhile. but theres only 1 thing it cant wash away. and i relie wish i could be there feeling the rain beat down on me. while i enjoy the coolness and all. i dont mind being struck by lighting. an easy death.
i relie cant take it. just thinking abt it. i just wanna run away. wish i got something. i wish i was independent so pple cant push me around just bcos im the fucking youngest. so wat if i dont contribute to the fucking family by helping. wat have u all fucking done....
november.
its gonna be my birthdae soon. 5 more daes. i dont feel like celebrating it wit my family. i just wanna lie to em and say i got to go to work. then come home late. birthdaes for me isnt something happy. cos everytime its my birthdae i wish i was never born. but i was. the only thing that makes me happy is not the present but my age... well. i tink im gonna celebrate wit friends. friends who i trust.... many of my friends are having their birthdaes on november. im taking u guys out after ur birthdae. coming?
when we were talking. u said that u wanted to celebrate it wit me. deep down somehow i knew that it wouldnt happen. i just somehow knew. and i wish i didnt knew. just to spent a moment wit u seems so fine. we have not yet settle things and i dont noe if we shud. shud i? i dont want it to end up in question marks and fights. im twisted up. i dont noe wat to do. i wish i met u earlier. percious time spent wit u. u stay in my mind i cannot forget u i dont noe y. i'll wont be fine. u'll be fine....
[[ can ani1 help me wit my open flam and rudimetals? ]]
[[ it seems that im missing u ]]
[[ novembers. ]]
PROFILE
faliq
.|.the.|.heart.|.broken.|.
.|.age.|.Sweet 16....
.|.d/o/b.|. remember remember.. the 1st of november...
.|.sign.|.scorpio
.|.autobiography.|.
.|.love.|.music, Drums, Snare, movies, nature, Blue, red, purple, white, black, Burple, shoes, friends, art, reading, Percussion, floorball, rock climbing.
.|.hate.|.dumbasses, jackasses, boundaries, being told what to do, people who brag about themselves constantly, mean people, cicadas -shudder-, Critising and those who pick on the weak....
.|.currently.|.
-talking to: nobody
-listening to: And then i turned seven. *
-watching: the world going by me....
-thinking:
abt life.
-wanting: the best
-iming: nobody
-surfing: the usuall.
-obsessing: music, percussion, cameras.
-wants: nothing.
